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Chosing to become a Mum, alone – Liv's Alone

Pressing the go button …

I’m Liv. I’m 37. I’m alone. So far, so normal. The next thing you need to know is that I am going to become a Mum. I’m not pregnant. Yet. This is is the start of documenting what is, no doubt, going to be a very long journey. A very long, very emotional, very hard journey. Don’t get me wrong, just because this is the start of me writing about this, this is not something that I am embarking on, on a whim. This is culmination of years, literally years, of longing. Of hoping I ...

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A tiny set back …

So it has been a couple of weeks since I posted as there have been a couple of obstacles that have taken up my time and the thought of spending more time at my screen was just too much! Anyway ... The clinic I went to see a couple of weeks was brand spanking new. Shiny, new and a wee bit premature. Unfortunately there was some documentation that the clinic didn't have in place just yet, so they weren't able to start my procedures until January. Also not a definite January, but a probably ...

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Appointment 1 of ? …

So the day has finally arrived. The day I actually go and speak to a real life breathing professional about my next steps. I am still 115% convinced that I am going to rock up and someone is going to laugh hysterically and declare, 'NOT YOU,' ... 'you've got to be kidding me. You are too old / childish / scruffy / cake loving / single to have this procedure. You are categorically not allowed to even try this. No way Jose.' So in preparation for this appointment I was going to get prepared. I ...

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Boobs …

A truly brilliant 5 minute short shot by my friend Leon, for Channel 4's Random Acts. It's called Embarrassed! The spoken word poet Hollie McNish recites her poem all about the madness of breastfeeding in public. Take a look. You won't be disappointed. https://vimeopro.com/leonwillis/leon-willis-dop/video/181478664

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Out of my depth …

I am sat sniffling through a cold, doing my homework. It has become clear to me that I am pretty out of my depth in the fertility field. Every time I think I am turning a corner with knowing the lay of the land, I come across something else to look into or make a decision about or note down to ask at the clinic. Did you know sperm and semen are not the same thing??? This blew my tiny mind. I have, for 37 years, thought that there were the same things. I thought for everything I didn't know I ...

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First appointment …

So as I have said before, I am using a brand new clinic for my treatment. Mainly because my friends work there and I like the thought of going somewhere where I will know a friendly face or two. Also it is not like the team there are all newly qualified and are finding their way ... it is essentially a team of skilled professionals setting up in a shiny new premises. It is all above board, I have checked! Anyway because it is a new team in a new building, I have had to wait a few months ...

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A little lighter …

So I have been at Fat Club for 9 or 10 weeks now and I have lost 1.5 stone! To be honest when you have a lot to lose it should be fairly easy to lose weight at the beginning, so I am pleased with my steady progress. I don't use Fat Club properly as I really do find it like a 90's comedy sketch. I have met some really great people there though so at least it doesn't feel too ridiculous. I go in, get weighed and run out ... there were celebratory sashes & crowns once. I know this works for ...

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Friends in brilliant places …

You know when something is going on in your life and suddenly things you hadn't really noticed before become like flashing neon signs ... like when you fancy someone and suddenly every song was written for you, you are on a diet and all adverts are for burgers and chips or when you have no money and The Perfect Pair of Boots keep coming up as featured ads? My life has become like that, but in an area I literally know nothing about (i.e. fertility treatments) I have two friends who work in ...

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Add to Basket …

So having taken advise and looked into it thoroughly, for various reasons I have decided that I am going I am going to get my sperm from a Danish bank. 'Going to get my sperm' ... sentences I never thought I would say! It is also totally hilarious to me how clinical it all is. Such sexy chat. Anyway, who wouldn't want a Viking baby? Denmark is consistently rated the happiest nation in the world, they live their life in a state of hygge (something I have unknowingly abided by all my life ... ...

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Not entirely alone …

Whilst I am not in a relationship it is very rare that I am actually on my own, mainly down to my scruffy sidekick Elvis. Elvis is an 8 year old Jack Russell x Bichon Frise and he is ace. He is a cat stuck in a dogs body, who sleeps for at least 20 hours a day. At least. He is so spoilt it is ridiculous. He comes to work with me, where a couple of the younger guys in the office actually sit down next to his bed to stroke him to sleep, just before feeding him the last remains of their lunch. ...

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